Easter, and my-smiles

Today, for the first time in my adult (being a mother) life I didn't put out colored eggs for my children or grandchildren to look for. I wasn't feeling as good as I usually feel the last few days and I just didn't color eggs, buy candy, make up a couple of Easter baskets to give out. Today, was Easter and it took me until noon to finally remember the true meaning of this day. Our Lord, Jesus Christ has been resurrected. He truly lives, and somehow that makes me smile. A warm feeling surrounds me and I SMILE.

It's True!!!! Time flies by so dang fast.

         Sitting alone, getting ready to scream at my computer for not doing what I want it to do.  So I do just what I do everyday, sit and look out the window, and giving myself a time-out.  I only need a few minutes, like 4 or 5, and then " I feel like a new woman".  Just saying that last quote makes me smile very big.  My grandson Matthew has such great one liners..one day after taking a bath, he proudly proclaimed to his mother, "I feel like a new woman".  It was something that was memorable to her because the next time she called me she told me what he had said and we both laughed out loud together.  Now every time I think of it, well, you know, it's just one of those memories you won't forget!!  It's true!!! Time flies by so dang fast.

Vanity....what a curse!!

     I have been vain all my life, I think.  When I was a teenager, probably around 15, I used to put a "tint" on my hair.  It was so exciting when a few friends would get together and do each others hair.  Giggling, outright laughing, and we couldn't wait for the next day at school to show off.  The things I have tried to be beautiful.  I remember going to a birthday party for a boy that I thought was sooo cute.  I wanted to get my teeth shiny so I put clear fingernail polish on them.  All evening I kept my smile on, and kept checking in the mirror to make sure it wasn't flaking off.  What a idiot.  Even at my age I want to look good.  I can't do anything about the sagging and wrinkling but I try to keep my hair dyed especially the roots.  That's what I was doing today when I found out the City maintenance workers had shut off the water, to fix something.  Oh crap..now what was I going to do.  If I leave the dye on and try to wait for the water to come back on, my hair might fall out.  Well,  I sent my wonderful husband to the store to buy 3 gallons of water.  He had to heat  it up a little and then everything went perfectly.  I'm now a happy camper!!

Remembering

     Just thinking  about a journey I took on this day a few years ago.   I was living as a single mother on welfare.  One child (my first) still crawling and needing to be carried because he refused to walk even though he was 11 months old.  I was quite small, at being nine months pregnant.  I lived in a one bedroom apartment above a furniture store.  I had grown up in this town, graduated from high school here, and knew many of it's people, including the owners of the store below. 
     Like many pregnant women, I was very tired of being "with child".  This particular day I had to see my Dr.  Anyway, I was started into labor.  I had my aunt Viola (a nurse) with me to help me and I had my second baby soon after starting into labor. 
     There she was, so small, so beautiful, with light reddish curly hair and a warm, wonderful, body to hold and kiss.  I wasn't the only one smiling....I felt like the whole world was smiling with me. 
     This child though the years has given me so much happiness and joy.  Is it still a smile when there are tears in my eyes?  It's just LOVE.

Spring has sprung ??

     Yesterday was a warm spring day, I swear it was!  Today is beautiful but that old wind (Mariah) is blowing in a storm.  We could use the moisture for all the gardening I want to do.  I am so excited about warmer weather and green grass, birds chirping, trees with leaves rustling, and the little plants that I grow, peeking out of the ground to grow up toward the sky.  It's a miracle the way Gods hand touches the world and perfection is born.

Wondering

      Well I'm new to posting anything I want.  A great sense of freedom.  If I want,  I can say a bunch of stuff and then hide it which would be making a terrible blog.
      I have never thought of myself as creative, sometime things just seem to turn out.  Like my kids.  They all seemed to turn out to be the most beautiful kids in the world.  Not only on the outside but also on the inside.  They all have hearts of gold.  When I think about how great they all are, I really beam.  My kids are all scattered around. Some in different parts of this state and some in other states.  My very best day is when I get to see or talk to most or all of them...then you should really see me smile.